2Do

While I’m taking a break from studying, and relaxing a little before going to sleep, here’s a list of stuff I intend to do this holiday:

Geeky Stuff:

1. Set up Windows 7 and Ubuntu 9.10 (Dual-boot).
2. Set up Android build environment in Ubuntu 9.10 so I can contribute to some of the system apps, hopefully.
3. Code out an Android program, will release more details when it’s more solidified.

Personal:

1. Exercise at least 3 times a week. I feel flabby.

Relationships:

1. Spend more time with Bunny Geri <3.
2. Learn rollerblading from/with her :P.
3. Batam with The Guys?
4. Catch up with Kelvin and the rest of the HDKs.

Seems quite reasonable to achieve all of them. Good night world.

Long Boring Post

Sometimes as friends we’d expect the other party(ies) to get the message, but the truth is things are seldom this way. If you want the other person to get it, talk to him or her. Actions may speak louder than words, but people will usually take your actions at face value, thus missing what you’re trying to hint altogether. I think it is sad that we’re in a society where people seldom dare to voice out, and it seems worse when it comes to the people close to us. Just take a look at your daily ride in the MRT or bus. When someone leans against the holding pole, you can clearly see on the faces of the other commuters that they are not very pleased over it, especially if they want to hold onto the pole too. Yet, very few people will actually tell the person off. Recently, I learnt that sometimes, words mean a lot more than actions. It sounds stupid, I know. Imagine you’re with a really wonderful partner. You know from his or her actions that he or she truly loves you, but your partner never once says “I love you” to you. How would you feel?

Another thing I often hear people telling me is “Be the change you want to be.” As always, things are easier said than done. Sometimes I see the people who tell me that NOT practising their own advice. We’re sometimes confined to the restrictions of society, to the point that being and doing the things that define you may often end up with you not having a job, or something as naive as having a group of people to hang out with. In that aspect I’d say we are all hypocrites.

This has been one of the worst semester for me, not in terms of results (no idea about that, really), but in terms of how I feel about it. I don’t feel like I’ve learnt much at all, and all I care about is having a break. This semester also reminded me never to depend on others when it comes to your own responsibilities, not even a little. Humans are peculiar beings. We have a habit of doing unpredictable things and letting people down at times when they really need you. I’ve lost count of the number of times this has happened. As they say, in life, when you die with 5 good friends, you’ve had a great life.

It has been a tiring semester not because of school only, but also due to all the other things that have been happening. When I think about it now, I realized many things that I thought didn’t affect me, in actual fact, actually changed my perception towards many things. I’m glad I realized it now, rather than later. I realized as much as I may seem family-oriented, I have never been one to really express, or actually feel it. That’s why, when I get a chance to play with my cousins recently, I actually feel quite happy.

As you grow older there’s this want (need, maybe?) to do more and more things, but at the same time, time seems to be getting shorter and shorter.

We never truly treasure what we have. The richer people I know are always talking about how their lives suck, about unrequited love, about not having enough money to buy a LV bag, the list goes on. On the other hand, I’ve friends who want to do everything that I feel makes life that much more meaningful, but they:

1. Can’t do it because they lack the money.
2. Can’t do it because they lack the money, and are working very hard just to get by, and as a result, lack the time as well.

I find it amazing and sad at the same time. What if, just for a day, the wealth of the rich whiners goes to the poorer ones. I think it’ll be a happier day for all of them. It would make no difference to the whiners since they will still be complaining anyway, and the people with dreams but no money can fulfill their dreams. It’d actually be good for the richer ones, since they may then see that life is much more than their material wants and sad love stories.

I’ve recently seen a lot of people who are blessed with great kids, but are themselves a curse to this kids. Some people shouldn’t be parents. With all of my flaws, including my supposedly bad temper, I think I’d still make a better parent, at least in terms of emotional support. I’m not a parent but I’ve got wonderful parents who do not send me for every damn course they FEEL I should join, or lose their temper at me for doing badly at a test.

I think this is going to be the last post for a while. My exams are coming up in approximately 3 weeks, and being the leader of tomorrow that I always am, I am completely unprepared. Starting right now, I’m going to study. The whole of next week will be dedicated to Math. Have yet to plan out a full timetable, intending to do one soon. In fact, I was reading my Cryptography textbook when I decided to blog.

Well, at the end of the day, this is just another blog post. Good night.

Almost Here

Conversation Between Me and Greg

(12:22 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	i sad over my haircut now damn cock cut too short like ns hair
(12:25 AM) wysie is bun's |:	mine also as in i cut then now the sides short like small beng lol
(12:25 AM) wysie is bun's |:	^5
(12:27 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	mine like lol this
(12:28 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	Sent an ink message:
(12:28 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	like cock
(12:28 AM) wysie is bun's |:	LOL
(12:29 AM) wysie is bun's |:	wah u draw v nice
(12:29 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	lol wtf
(12:30 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	Sent an ink message:
(12:30 AM) wysie is bun's |:	Sent an ink message:
(12:30 AM) wysie is bun's |:	wtf
(12:30 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	WTF lol
(12:30 AM) wysie is bun's |:	i suck at drwing leh LOL
(12:30 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	if u look like this i will luff like fuck
(12:31 AM) wysie is bun's |:	Sent an ink message:
(12:31 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	Sent an ink message:
(12:31 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	like this?
(12:31 AM) wysie is bun's |:	make the sides shorter but front longer
(12:32 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	Sent an ink message:
(12:32 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	like this?
(12:32 AM) wysie is bun's |:	ya ya
(12:32 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	still ok compared to mine leh
(12:33 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	Sent an ink message:
(12:33 AM) wysie is bun's |:	Wtf lol ok one la
(12:33 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	supposed to be mohawk can?
(12:34 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	lol

Please forgive the formatting, it was a straight copy and paste :P.

Hello?

Hello all, been a while. Life’s been quite hectic. I spent the whole of last week trying to finish my diet analysis assignment for one of my modules (GEK1529). The scope/requirements were very vague, and I’ve no idea how much info I should include or not include. Well, in the end I just decided to include as much as I can. I’ve to admit it was a pretty interesting experience. I spent countless hours in the NUS Science Library (first time there!), looking through tables after tables of food composition. On the darker side, I’m behind schedule for almost all my modules now. My time management skills are simply top-notch.

On a brighter note, I decided to finish the next assignment for the module as well, so I can probably ignore this module for a while. Also, it seems most of my assignments are done (ahead of deadline). In fact I think all of them are done, just need to finish up the report, which should not take too long. *hopes someone in the group will do it so i can relax*

Anyway, I watched Funny People yesterday, not a bad show, but not awesome either. Watch it if you’ve a lot of time (it’s 2.5hours). It’s meaningful, but draggy. Also, THIS IS THE SHORTEST WEEKEND I HAVE WITH GERI :(. Ah, well. She got her Doo Doo Milk Biscuit though, lol :D.

I can’t wait for this semester to be over, it feels like the worst one ever (since poly). Lack of focus, lack of results, lack of everything. I don’t even feel like studying. I’d rather spend everyday coding, doing assignments, meeting deadlines, than to revise. They seem to repel me somehow, the lecture notes and the textbooks (and honestly, some of the lecturers too). We need good lecturers, good teachers, not good researchers :(.

I seem to have lost my confidence completely, when it comes to studies. I keep telling myself, I’ll change everything when this semester ends. The fact is, I should just do it now. So stop f-ing around, Mr Wysie :D.

I FEEL MOTIVATED SUDDENLY! (Only for now)

Good night all!

Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down. - Oprah Winfrey

How true :). I had a wonderful evening/night with Geri the Bun and my awesome friends who I’m sure are willing to take the bus with me :P.

Also, I actually found the RMIT event pretty enjoyable, although I was only involved in like 0.0001% of it. For some reason the way the students behave made me smile, even though I usually dislike noise. I think it’s because it reminds me of my polytechnic days, something I can never dream of seeing in my own school, very sadly.

Geri is an awesome speaker :P! I’m so proud of my Bun! Haha :D. Words can’t describe how awesome she is to me ^^.

On another note, I watched Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs with Geri yesterday. It’s a VERY good show :). I think it’s especially true that sometimes we find it very hard to express what we really feel, and end up using corny words, or worse, hurtful words, when what we really want to say is, “I care. Please be fine.” With that said, I think it’s better that we are this way, instead of the crap I hear in life sometimes, like “You’re the best, bro.” every single time they meet, or some other similar crap, you know what I mean. On the other hand, of course it’s good to speak your mind/heart more often :). Just don’t be a wanna-be :P.

I accept the very sad fact that I don’t like my school life. You know it sucks when I like my modules more than some of the people I know :). Not like it matters a lot to me anymore. Some things just aren’t worth your time. Don’t even bother to try and understand. If people like to cause pain and drama for themselves, why should you care?

Also, I was a partial fashion disaster today. I’ve learnt my lesson not to mix stripes with checkers :P, although I still think it looked pretty ok *beams with pride*. Thanks for the advice though :D.

With regards to my midterm, I shall work harder :).

Recently I had my MA1521 mid-term, which I screwed up and am sure I will fail. It sucks because I really put in a lot of effort into it, much more than any module, and I skipped an entire week of lessons at NTU so I can focus on it.

The worst part is that it's not that I don't know how to do, but for some reason I made ridiculous careless mistakes that cost me, a lot. It's a MCQ, so if you're wrong, that's it. No working marks, no nothing.

So I'm probably getting less than 10% for this 20% weightage test, and I've to somehow get 80% for the final.

Some stupid mistakes I made include seeing a t as 1, differentiating a constant and somehow it remains a constant instead of 0.

The only good news is that hopefully whatever I've learnt helps me for the final paper.

Sigh. Have to get over this shitty feeling somehow. If I was just clueless, it wouldn't have been this bad. It's bad because I knew how to do them, yet I f-up. As they always say, suck it up, move on. I know.